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her masked heartbreak

half an hour to midnight.

i've been stoning for the past ten minutes. i considered smsing, but then i was afraid i'd wake people in their beauty sleep. i tried homework, but im really exhausted today. i even fell asleep, then i realised i didnt feel like sleeping.

and ive been pouting for the longest time before i even realised that i was.

haha so amanda is a tired, whiny, emotional wreck all rolled up into one and she doesnt know what to do.

well, lets hope next week goes better.

belated valentine's, starring roxy, my beloved sheltie.

as bled, the glorious

11:28 PM

Friday, February 13, 2009

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masquerade, and tomorrow's love story

sugar soaked

crezawards 2009 was awesome.

friday the 13th wasnt so bad after all. so we screamed til our throat hurt and laughed and camwhored to the max. today was a blast.

make time stop, so we can do it all over again.

mr lee and the vertically challenged kids

taufik batisah came

so did west grand bolevard and this really good danc group.

haha this was funny, lixin became the light.

this, is classic. we were all like "juuuuuuump!"

spells it all, doesnt it?

so tomorrow, back at the crossroads?

haha nope, dateless alright.

11:50 PM

Sunday, February 08, 2009

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oh sugar.

insanity 101

oh no, its been 20 days since i've blogged.

because time is such a bitch, it hates me to the core and i feel like i want to kick myself everytime i fall asleep on my work.

no time no time no time.

today was a total waste of time.
procrastination isnt doing any good
and amanda should be mugging mugging mugging.

i should chant this every morning and every night until it actually gets into my head.

photos, 23rd january.

birthday kid. had her birthday lunch at sakae. made us fatty haha.

"siao hahaha."

then we went over to jean's house(the labortory) to meet dexter(the genious)

yes, this is dexter.

group photos below.

schedule for the days to come:

mug.

eat. sleep.

mug in dreams.

wakeup. eat. sleep.

mug until i fall asleep.

sounds exciting, no? sheesh i feel like ramming my head against the wall.

12:34 AM

Monday, January 19, 2009

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trapped inside herself

for all the times

photos from barbeque on saturday.

mug. mug. mug.

9:56 PM

Friday, January 09, 2009

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more than that, more than you.

school, o levels, school, o levels.

sheesh, its like a chant i hear when i wake up, when i go to sleep and every minute that comes in between.

school, o levels, school, o levels, school, o levels.

argh.

anyway, i hope this explains my not blogging for a week. because school is being a complete bitch, with homework and studying for comfort, i hardly have time to sleep, much less update and bore you with my pathetic school life.

but thank God its friday. i dont think i've been more relieved that the weekends are here. as much as that means extreme mugging and another unsuccessful attempt to finish all my overdue homework, im just thankful for the break from everything.

for one, i get to blog. and the most wonderful thing of all, i get to stone. although i still dont get enough sleep. but i'll live with what i have.

anyway,

today was campfire for secondary one orientation.

dance, danced.

regina!

aloycia and regina. i think this is really cute.

shu zhen and i

peeps came over. whee.

haha ms sim

ling ling and sharon

aloycia and amelia.

over. over over over you.

11:59 PM

Thursday, January 01, 2009

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;save tonight

hold me?

i mean seriously. literally. whatever.

freaking hold me down.

oh my gosh,

i want to scream til everyone wakes up and i wanna throw tantrums all through the night and in the morning on the bus i want to glare very very viciously at everyone(so that they'll think im a vampire and that i want to kill them all muaha) and then when i get to school i want to shout out to the whole school and announce that "i wanna go home!!! i wanna go home i wanna go home i wanna go home! i. want. to. freaking. go. home!!"

now,

please excuse the above.

i feel much, much better.

oh tomorrow will be such a wonderful day, the sky will be blue and the birds will be singing and i'll be a happy little kid bouncing my way off to school.

oh im gonna puke already.

well, now that all that's off my chest, there's actually still a little(and by little i mean freakishly puny, its non-existent) bit of excitement that comes along with the first day of school. except this time around, im looking forward to what comes after the first day of school which is the oh gosh freedom! of the weekend. thank God its friday. for tomorrow, but yeah.

oh man i could just drop dead and die. and if i dont, i'll try to drop dead a million more times until i actually succeed.

im starting to think,

haha i have issues.

10:31 PM

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forget sweet nothings, i want my prince

this year's got the best of my insanity.

happy new year.

12:01 AM

Saturday, December 27, 2008

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go kiss a toad this christmas, the prince is yours.

charming mini me, no?

christmas christmas.

and all i want for it.. nah, shh, you dont need to know. well this year's didnt feel much like christmas. and i didnt even feel like going christmas shopping this time around. shocking, i know.

but for all time's sake,

merry christmas.

anyway,

homework makes me go crazy.

it makes me want to rip the papers into pieces and scream muahaha at the shredded bits. and then i just give up and plop my head on the table and stone.

and then i either start doodling or i come here to blog. or i do both. which is what ive done today after my unproductive, unsuccessful attempt to finish my holiday homework. and to think before school closed, i made myself promise i'd finish my homework before november ends. and now december has come and gone and ta-da, school reopens in like what 5 days?

i'll go buy my own tombstone now.

so this is my doodle of the day.

belated photos with my

crazy crazy, very crazy dog

sharon came over the other day to get some homework done. it didnt go that bad, and we actually managed to finish a little until we just gave up and slacked.

well,

i should get back to my urgh homework now.

mourn for me.

11:09 PM

Monday, December 22, 2008

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this lifetime or this minute

family portrait.

teenagers vs adults.

a teenager is like an alien from another planet.

people give you a look like we're some extra terrestrial species like they cant understand you no matter how hard they try. and the look they give you is just plain creepy. they think your world is insanely weird and cannot comprehand your way of thinking(which in other words means they just cannot stand your impulsiveness).

and i think its hilarious how we can be the same species when obviously adults and us are what lightyears apart and disturbingly different.

and needless to say, getting along is like going through world war 3. save the fact that the only casualty in this war, seems to be always the kid.

so today, well today just didnt go so well.

dont get me wrong

amanda is a happy kid looking forward to tomorrow. and looking forward to falling asleep once im done with this post.

more photos from taiwan trip.

and the convenient comment my brother gave was "oh my gosh medusa"

hmmm haha i cant remember where this is

and we had fun in the playground in the cold.

even my mum had fun haha

starting to miss the winter over there.

so i figured,

something must have gone wrong along the way when i was growing up. like maybe the world started spinning the other way around.

but i might as well get used to it.

12:06 AM

Saturday, December 20, 2008

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loved you lately

the most awesome time of the day:

is when i get back home, alone in my room and blast music through my speakers, drown out my thoughts and just completely and utterly stone.

that, haha, is my meditation.

well, that aside, today was odd.

tiring, fun, tiring, fun and really really odd with alot of stares on the way home.

cause we went home carrying bamboo poles in our hands and two more in our bags.

and we even went to watch twilight with the poles. in case you were wondering, the poles are for dance.

and in the span of about the 4 hours we were in tiong bahru plaza carrying the poles around, we were asked twice if we were pole dancers. haha well at least the two people who asked were both really nice aunties.

anyway,

"you're my own personal brand of heroin"

then i felt my heart melt like completely.

its always easier to believe in fiction. like if my life was a nightmare i'd probably rejoice cause i know sometime or another everything would be just the way it was and i'd wake up from it.

and its always easier to believe in something you want to believe in. so here, take your pick: choose what you want to believe in.

well, i ___(fill in the blank)___ you.

11:14 PM

Friday, December 19, 2008

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endlessly, blindly

shadows fall across the sky.

i am an emotional nutcase.

miss PMS is in an extremely bad mood today.

i have my emotions all mixed up. when did anger become disappointment? and how come i couldnt figure out that hope would turn out to be ignorance?

life's unfair blah blah blah. well that sucks.

give me a break.

its like the world i know is spinning out of control.

i cant hold on when there's nothing to hold on to.

11:34 PM